Deeply in the heart

If only you would give me a second glance
If only you could hear the shattering of my heart
Silently, I watch over you
Silently, I wait for a miracle
Silently letting myself be just like the air
Everybody is having a good time here tonight
In the corner, I'm laughing along with the crowd
I am like the leftover onion at the bottom of the plate,
just the seasoning
Secretly, I sneak a glance at you
Secretly, I hide myself away

If you are willing to,
Peel open my heart
Layer by layer by layer
You will discover, you will be surprised
You are my deepest and most
suppressed secret

If you are willing to,
Peel open my heart
Layer by layer by layer
Your nose will run, your tears will flow
If you could only hear, and see my wholeheartedness
Hearing you speak of you and her, the atmosphere shifts
Me and my hopelessness, we seem very amused
I am just like an onion forever playing
the supporting character
How I wish I had a second with you, to make our own story

-The End-

Pendidikan vs Hospitaliti

assalamualaikum

Entry kali ini mengenai kebuntuan fikiran saya. WHY? sebab confuse nak pilih antara Pendidikan di universiti atau bidang Hospitaliti di kolej-kolej tempatan.

Again WHY culinary? Because that was my ambition since i was 15 years old. Dan sebab itu juga lah yang mendorong saya untuk belajar jauh-jauh masa form 4 and 5 dulu. Belajar di sekolah teknik dan vokasional dalam bidang pengurusan makanan dengan harapan lepas SPM nanti dapatlah sambung dalam bidang masak-memasak ni lagi. Tapi harapan hancur-musnah-berkecai dalam sekelip mata lepas bapak tak bagi masuk universiti dulu tuk sambung diploma. tssk -_- last-last STPM juga dahku ambil.

ingat lagi tak? one of my fav cartoon :)  " i was dying to be a chef "

Now, I'm in dilemma. Even tikus pun boleh jadi chef apalagi dahku sebagai manusia? i mean, helooo aku kan manusia. So,should i continue my dream? or should i follow my father's command AGAIN? My father really hopes that one of his children be a teacher just like him. Well my big bro is a part time lecturer. Isn't that considered as a teacher too? 

Nowadays kita belajar di mana-mana pun boleh. Tapi soal pekerjaan memang susah. Tak semestinya sambung dalam bidang pendidikan, masa depan cerah. Well maybe, but i am more interest in cooking and baking things. I don't wanna be a teacher. If i proceed to culinary maybe i can open a restaurant one day and become a businesswoman? Like, who knows kan? But now? 

I still remember 2 years ago masa kemasukan ke universiti bagi pengambilan pelajar diploma, my dad langsung tak bagi muka. Padahal waktu tu dapat banyak tawaran masuk u. But still, my dad want me to continue study pada peringkat STPM sahaja. Sedihnya hati tak terkata waktu tuh. Tapi tetap juga gagahkan diri sambung STPM dan alhamdulillah result pun ok jugak.

Now, i don't have any idea what to do. Kalau tanya kawan ofkos lah dorang kata follow your dream tapi kalau tanya the elders mesti dorang kata follow your father's arahan. -_- 

Never mind. Apa pun cabang yang dahku ambil lepas ni pasti ada hikmahnya. (huhu bajet tenangkan diri sendiri) Tapi still berharap dapat sambung kos masak-masak dan bakar-bakar (baking) lepas ni. Amin. Doakan ja lah. 

hah kau. para chef siap posing lagi kat stor makanan. peace!

Terserlah kegembiraan kami masa first time buat fondant cake. Rindunyaaa time ni :(

dengan cikgu kesayangan. Puan Mathilda Sius. miss u cikgu :')

Itu saja untuk entry kali ni. bye!

Political Views Among Youth

assalamualaikum wbt

Today is tenth day of the missing aircraft MH370 that is known for the best and sophisticated aircraft of all in Malaysia. It is Boeing777200ER. 

But... I don't want to write about this missing aircraft because i know i don't have that much knowledge about it. And i don't want to spread any speculation that can lead to slander. 

The main purpose of this new entry is about political views among the young generation. For this past 10 days, what i can say based on my 'observation' is that, many people especially the youth, had showed their 'kebijaksanaan dan kepandaian' on the social media. Atau lebih tepat lagi kebodohan mereka. 

Kita tidak tahu apa sebenarnya yang terjadi pada MH370 tu. Adakah ini disebabkan rampasan? Atau permainan politik semata-mata? After all this days, still, the aircraft considered missing because there's not a hint that shows this aircraft was being hijack. But maybe. No one knows. 

Okey. Back to the main topic. Tak salah kita sokong mana-mana ideologi politik di Malaysia tapi jangan sampai hilang hormat terhadap orang lain dan jangan sampai hilang kewarasan akal anda, k. Apa yang boleh saya katakan berdasarkan pemerhatian di media sosial terutamanya Facebook, ramai dari golongan remaja mahupun mahasiswa dan mahasiswi mula mengaitkan isu kehilangan MH370 ini dengan kerajaan Malaysia. I mean, pffttt wth? Anuar di hukum penjara setimpal dengan kelakuannya. I still confused with some people yang tak tahu apa-apa mengenai hal politik tapi still menunjukkan kebodohan mereka dengan melemparkan kata-kata yang tidak elok yakni cacian kepada Kerajaan Malaysia. Ada yang mengatakan bahawa ini adalah balasan kepada mereka (government pepol) sebab penjarakan Anuar. Well hellooo, Allah Maha Adil. Apa pun perbuatan kita akan dibalas setimpal dengan kelakuan kita, right? So, kebenaran telah terbukti lah sekarang. Kalau u'ols tak puas hati, pergilah ikut dia masuk penjara sekali. Sorry to say, but this is what I though this few days. Geram sangat -_-

I'm not in any side of this politic ideology. Government or opposition? I'm not interested in both. But doesn't mean I ignore about what happen in our country politic's 'game'. 

Actually I don't want to write long about this. Cukup setakat pengetahuan anda sahaja bahawa masih ada manusia yang berfikiran cetek+sempit=bengong setelah apa yang telah terjadi. Janganlah kita menambahkan beban mereka yang sedang berusaha mencari pesawat MH370 tu lebih-lebih lagi para menteri. 

So, keep praying for them, the passengers and crews of the aircraft. Hopefully they will come back soon and safely. May Allah protect them where ever they are. Aamiin.

*p/s kalau BR1M keluar kemahen lagi korang laju pegi bank kan. bangun awal pagi tak gosok gigi pun sanggup kot semata-mata nak ambil duit. tapi kalau bab mencaci maki, tak ingat pulak dosa pahala. tak ingat dunia takpa asal tak lupa akhirat dah la.